His plane was supposed to leave around 9am this morning, but I just got a text from him, and it won't be leaving until this evening because of weather on the East Coast. Ick. Its weird knowing he's still technically here, but I can't see him. And I'm frustrated for him that he's stuck for another day. I know we both were ready to just get this overwith.
We had a really good day yesterday though. I'm sooo glad I took off from work. We slept in, took the dogs on a walk, did random errands, watched a movie, ate a delicious steak dinner (that I made! I'm getting good with the BBQ!), and just hung out. There were a bunch of last-minute things we needed to take care of, so it was a little less relaxing than I envisioned, but it was still really great. And I didn't start crying until about 30 minutes before we had to leave the house.
Overall, I did pretty well last night. Our goodbye was really hard, but I know we can do this. I know its not going to suck so much after awhile and I know God is taking care of us. I wish it didn't have to be this way, but its not like theres anything we can do about it. I'm just praying that we get to talk as much as possible and get into a routine. Thats my biggest concern.
I'm doing alright today, but am just kind of in a haze. I honestly feel like I'm in shock. I really just don't know how to react. I'm not quite as miserable as I was when Nick left for NTC (pre-deployment training), but I'm definitely not "ok" yet either. I'd say I'm mopey. I didn't really sleep that well last night either. The dogs were definitely good snugglers though. I'm just trying to keep busy and I definitely have a full to-do list of possibilities. I've already cleaned the house and I'm going to try to tackle our Christmas cards next.
Oh, really exciting news...apparently our package was not stolen! Last night one of our neighbors stopped by with it! It was delivered to the wrong house!!! WOOHOO! That was such a relief, especially because I was starting to get so annoyed with our neighborhood. So yay for that!
I'll leave you with some pictures from last night:
Sleepy/snuggly dogs
Scout getting one last snuggle
Us
Nick saying goodbye to his "sidekick" Rufus
Saying goodbye to Scout
About to say goodbye
4 comments:
Oh I am so glad you are hanging tough. This is going to sound SO insane, but....honestly, NTC was harder for me. I'm on month three of this now, and I really think the 5 weeks he spent safe in California were more difficult than this deployment (and that's even with all of the crazy crap I've been dealing with!!!!). I think just knowing that he won't be home for a reeeeaaallly long time helps me because I am not literally counting the hours until he is back. I hope it's easier for you, too!
Thanks for stopping by today! :) Please call if you need anything or you just want to whine that your family doesn't understand!!! I'm here for you!!! Love ya.
Stay strong, I'm here call me any time you need to talk.
I would be so pissed if I knew JAM was that close but I couldn't see him.
HUGS
Hey Courtney! My husband is leaving today and I was just googling "how to say goodbye on deployment day" and I read your blog, and it made me feel a little better knowing that there is someone out there that feels the same way I do. I live in San Diego, we're miles apart, but just know that I'm on the same boat as you. If you wana email me, we can keep in touch. sdquitugua@gmail.com
Take care and keep it strong. I'm sending you my hugs :0) Donnna
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